Yesterday I bought a big clay pot, a bag of soil and a bunch of petunias. When I came home I placed a few stones in the bottom of the pot, poured in some soil and planted the flowers. Then I gave them a big drink of water and placed them in the sun on my front porch.
A smile began to grow on my face. Finally I had my petunias!
It was nearly 3 weeks ago that I first had the desire to bring a pot of flowers home. But for some reason I kept putting it off. Was I waiting for dinner to be over so that I could have my dessert, the work to be done so I could play, others needs to be met before I could meet my own?
I’m really not certain what made me hesitate but I do know that yesterday there was no question that I was going to go get those flowers. I knew that I would find just what I wanted and although the flowers were spindly at the first greenhouse, they were flourishing at the second one.
I felt like I just got a new puppy as I drove home with my trunk full of potential.
Since I planted my flowers, I have gone to the front of my house so many times to take a look. I’ve looked out my front door to admire them. I’ve sat on my front steps just to be near them. I’ve stood at the end of my walkway filled with appreciation. I’ve invited my son and my partner to sit in the love seat on my front porch to join with me in gazing at the beauty of the blooms.
This is what it feels to satisfy my desires. This is what it feels like to care for my self. This is what it feels like to be fully alive. The deliciousness is so nourishing.
A number of years ago during a particularly challenging time, I wrote this letter to myself about my desires. When I got to the end I realized that the sender was Love. I share it with you now in hopes that you will recognize a whisper of a desire in yourself and find a way to support yourself in breathing it into life.
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Dear One,
I am here to talk to you about your desires. Your desires are the very essence of you. They are what make you unique, individual, special.
Your desires connect you to the divine. They open you to joy and love and happiness. Your desires affirm life. They are the most pure expression of love. Your desires are what make you whole and holy human.
Your desires are for you and only you.
When you were a child your desires were squelched. You were questioned and corrected. You were stopped from knowing. You learned to hide your desires, even from yourself.
Now is the time to awaken them. Now is the time to open with wonder to the quiet place inside your self and hold it in your hand with tenderness.
Now is the time to breath air upon your desires to awaken and support them. Place your desires in the safety of a nest and nourish them from tiny whispers to full grown and feathered.
Soon your desires will fly and they will take you places unknown and wonderful showing you the world in a way you’ve never dreamed.
Love
Is there something you’ve been meaning to create or to invite into your life? I would love to support you on your journey to fresh new perspective. Email me at jovanna@yourwelcomehome.ca
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